Destroyed by NHS Labelling

No sooner had I transferred to his practice, when other members of the practice pointed out that I should not be on their list because I lived outside the boundaries of their catchment area. My previous doctor would not take me back as he had taken the fact I left him as an act of showing my dissatisfaction with his service. It was normal for them to refuse to take back anyone who had left them.

Brendan received a lot of flack from his practice colleagues. At first he held his ground, but gradually started finding it too much hassle and started agreeing with malicious remarks from practice colleagues suggesting that the reason my epilepsy had got worse following the accident was that I was perpetrating an insurance claim fraud against the driver who drove into me. Months past and relationships broke down more and more due to conflict of interest issues.

David (my partner) had always been rather strongly a mummy's boy. His mother had always been strongly possessive of him and had always seen me as a threat to how much time David spent with her. She snapped up any suggestion that I might be perpetuating a fraudulent accident claim. That was just her personality and I had learned over 13 years to live with that. However with Brendan virtually living in her house and moaning about how his colleagues were treating him as a result of me, she grew even more anti-me and did her best to turn David against me. Eventually she succeeded, and to this day (19 years later) has successfully preventing him ever settling into another proper relationship with anyone else either.

My epilepsy continued to get worse. I was still convinced it was all the result of the accident, though retrospectively the stress of this conflict with my GP practice and loss of my partner was all strongly exacerbating it really. Meanwhile, my doctor had been convinced by his practice collegaues that it was not really worse and it was all an accident claim fraud attempt. After about a year, Brendan succumbed to the pressure and told me I was no longer on his list and to find another doctor.

Meanwhile the belief that I had been feigning worse epilepsy as an accident claim fraud was told to the local hospital, where I was likely to be taken if I had seizures in public places. The hospital appeared to have an incomplete story of what had gone on. Time and time again I was told "If my epilepsy was real, how come it never showed on EEG tests". I was frequently challenged with this despite the fact that it actually did show on EEG tests. This question was added to my medical records, still without anyone reading back far enough to read all the positive EEG results already in my notes. I was repeatedly challenged "How come no doctor had ever observed my seizures", when in fact many had. Truth or reality did not seem to matter! - Merely the "Witch Hunt" mattered.

Another occasion I had a seizure in a public place and came round just as the ambulance arrived, which a woman standing next to me had called. With the woman still there I was challenged "How dare I call out and ambulance saying I had just run over my husband, when it is me on the grass again!". The woman not really knowing what was going on merely said she was sorry. The ambulance men ignored her misplaced apology. I was bundled in the ambulance, where I was accused of making the phone call she had made and saying "I had run over my husband". To the best of my speculation, the woman must have said she "had run over to the phone booth from her husband who she had left watching me", or something to that effect! A clear example of how things are mis-interpreted to fit a Witch Hunt once a Witch Hunt starts.

Soon I was told I "must not have seizures in public places" and I "must find some way of making sure it never ever happens again!" Meanwhile my epilepsy was still getting worse; hardly surprising with the stress they were putting me under. Still I believed this ever increasing seizure rate all the result of the accident, while they still believed it was all a fraudulent accident claim attempt. Surely medically qualified people should have realised what was really happening and the part they were playing!